But today, I caught myself on a new blog - http://www.rookiemoms.com/. This is
unlike most of what I read thus far… no more advice on how to relieve heartburn
and bloat during pregnancy. No more reassurance that those kicks are just
hiccups and not the baby having a seizure. I have found myself moving on to
sites about what life will be like, well… for the rest of my life. As a parent.
I had a freak out moment this morning. I am scared shitless
to be a parent despite the fact that was our main goal of getting pregnant in
the first place. Someone is going to be dependent on me – 100% of the time for
the next 18 years (at least, but if this kid is anything like me, they will be
looking to me for support for the rest of my life).
As scared as I am, I am much more excited. I am so excited
to meet our daughter or son. I am excited about the firsts… our first look (boy
or girl?!?), first breastfeeding, first kiss, first night in the big boy/girl
bed, first days of school, first dances, first family vacations and countless
others. But what I am most excited about… giving my child the life I have and
more – I was given so much throughout my child- and adulthood. I can’t wait to
give my kids the same love, support and encouragement that I am blessed to have
by my parents.
That said… I have just about 9 weeks (give or take of
course) until all of those firsts, begin. For now, I will commit to enjoying
the moments Chad and I have left in pregnancy – finishing the nursery, the baby
shower, Vegas, Thanksgiving and the holidays (possibly New Years). The next 9-10
weeks are our the last moments we have to ourselves… let’s make the best of it.
Yes, Chad is trying to do something inappropriate to the pumpkin stem. |
Edward Cullen and Pregnany Bella - Halloween 2012 |