Just saying the word “Diet” makes me hungry?

Before I start… Am I a douche? My sister and her boyfriend seem to think that the title of this blog is douchie… is it? I am open to suggestions.

I added a new element to my blog (I am so damn fancy), please scroll to the bottom of the page… I’ll wait…

Now all you can see how much weight (I am not) loosing! Like most brides, I am trying to lose weight and tone up before the big day. I have to admit, I failed for the first few months… I could not find the motivation to stay on a diet plan and go to the gym more than once a week. I was in bliss, happier than I had ever been. I had just gotten engaged, safe to say that dieting was not at the forefront of my priority list – showing off my new ring was. Then it hit me – at my first dress fitting. I put on my dress, a dress I am still absolutely in love with, and I realized I hated the way I looked in it. No amount of undergarments was going to make it look better. For this reason, I have been battling the bulge.

I have had a weight issue as long as I can remember. I cannot blame it on anyone but myself, I sat on a couch my entire childhood eating spoonfuls of peanut butter, ice cream and chips, spending no time outside exercising. I did not even walk the dog for my parents – fatty fatty two by four. It was not until high school, after joining Weight Watchers (another great program), that I lost a significant amount of weight. My confidence shot through the roof and for the first time, I was really somewhat happy with my body. But it was almost ten years ago that I lost that 50 pounds… college and graduation brought some of it back… but I have flip flopped within 5-15 pounds of my lowest. Although I am still within five pounds of my lowest, I am medically considered overweight. Honestly, it is not even about the numbers on the scale anymore, I just want my wedding day to be the one day I don’t think about my weight, I don’t want to think about people looking at my flabby arms, my back, double chin… none of it. I want to look beautiful that day; but more importantly, I want to feel beautiful.

For about a month, I have been tracking every calorie, fat gram, protein gram and carbohydrate that has entered my mouth. I am working out at least four times a week – both weight lifting and cardio workouts. To be honest, I have not lost what I thought I would. Eight pounds since October, that’ it. It was not until I focused solely on eating as many proteins as possible that I finally started to see some results. I sat at the same weight for about 4 weeks… FRUSTRATING!!

Of course, if I could afford a personal trainer, expensive diet plan and food maybe things would be different. But alas, I am doing this on my own, with the support of the Fatsecret (Google it) and a monthly gym membership. If you are trying to lose weight on your own, I would suggest FATSECRET, it is free, easy and the community members are fun.

Keep me in your thoughts as you eat your fried goods and sweets - lucky. My next weigh in is tomorrow. Let’s see how good I was during the holidays.